Currently in love with 2PM. Hehhhhhh :B

Crap, my lower spine hurts like eff.

Best day ever, only me and you knows why. ^^

Woke up at ard 12plus. No time for tuition alr. Cos my tuition's 1.30 @ amk.
So... Decided to skip tuition. (:
Didnt do any homework. Rott at home until evening. Had a huge arguement with mum.
But nvm, everything's okay now.

Didnt want to stay in the house any longer. I neeed some fresh air.
So.. met up with 16year old and took circle line to J8.
Hahah, main purpose of going there is to buy ann's present.
After buying her present, walked ard. Went to NTUC cos the kid wanted to get her gummy.
Suppose to accompany her to study but we watched a movie instead.
My first NC16 movie! Although im not 16 luh! but i managed to pass ^^
Slacked at coffee bean until ard 845 then we got chased away by the coffee bean staff cos
we had to buy sth to sit there. So, went to the playground at 3rd floor.
Saw ppl dancing line dance.
Hahah, interesting siol.

Bought my drink then went in. The person asked me to show my ic.
I chua tio sia. Then luckily 16 year old is 16 year old so she can show then hers. PHEW~
My first nc16 show~ bleah.
Its a horror movie. My second time watching horror movie in the cinema.
Damn sadistic luh that show. But it was kinda nice. ^^
Moral of the show: Dont flirt ard!
Movie ended at 11plus. Took 53 back to srgn.
Slacked at stage. Wanted to eat supper at macs de. But nah, im saving money.
Slack until ard.. 2.15am.
Reached home at 2.20am.

Hmmm. Best day ever~ Bleah not gonna tell you why. xD

PS: i stole sth from 16year old. hehhhhhh. (:

Dont ever say i've never tried.
You're not me.
So you wont know.
You dont know.
I've tried.
But not going to anymore.
Giving up.
Letting go.
Forgetting.
Really moving on this time.
And i guess, i'll be able to.
I'll not struggle. anymore.

You say:

I dont believe.
I dont try.
I alr have someone here for me.

BUT:
How you want me to believe? You think its easy?
How to try? You think i dont wan?
and most of all, DONT YOU HAVE ALOT OF PPL THERE FOR YOU TOO? HUH. ESP THAT ___.

Yeah. and now you're giving up. K give up all you want. Watch all you want.
Sick of hearing all my crap? FINE. Im not saying anymore.
ITS ALL MY FAULT. MY BAD. -.-

Woooot~ i pon-ed training ytd. Cos we had to go RI for some.... Opening ceremony?
Rehearsal nia. Monday's the actual day.
AND WOOHOO I GET TO PON LESSONS FOR 1 HOUR AND TRAINING. Heheheh, awesome.
Im the flag bearer, Chris's the oath taker and shar's the OBSERVER! Actually observer only sit at the back rott nia. V sian. I was sleeping throughout the ceremony!
The speech was " Hi one and all. Okay end of speech." Hahah, damn stupid. But anw its just a rehearsal so there's no need to say the speech. My hand was breaking luh! Hold the flag there for damn long. Monday confirm gg de. Tsk, asshole kept playing with my fingers.
There was also a taekwondo performance. But all the flags were blocking my view!
So i just shut my eyes and sleep.

Otw to return the flag, I SAW THAT WHITLEY GIANT. She waved at me and smiled.
So i did the same thing. I didnt know she was so friendly. She's kinda fierce but i still think she's a nice person. ((: Didn expect myself to meet her again. Hahaha.
After that we took a cab and mr lim alighted at bowen. We continued our journey to a nearby field where the c girls were having their training. It was kinda opposite fernvale pri.
I slept for quite long at the metal bench. Asshole's hand was my eye mask. The sun was too bright so i used her hand to block the sun. Hahaha. And the wind was damn strong!
V shiok. But mr skirt kept flying == Oh ya, michelle's my arm rest. I felt like a princess for that moment cos i have a arm rest and a eye mask. LOL.
But i felt damn uncomfortable cos the bench was too small for me. I couldnt find a nice position. We tried to talk. But there was still no conclusion. So i guess, the conclusion is nothing. Cos you're giving up. So.. Lets just forget the past. And we'll still be friends.

After the c girls training end, me, chris, mich and shar walked to jalan kayu for dinner.
Mich lend me money to eat, hahah. Cos i was broke. Didnt really bring much money with me.
I ordered pineapple rice. then mich copy me also! After that i shared the honey prata with her cos she couldnt finish it. But i didnt eat much too cos she rice portion was quite big. And i didnt really feel that the prata was nice. So ya. Jaime came! Ms Ang's boyf. Haha.
First time meeting him. He was quite a funny person. Lolol. So, they ordered their dinner and we left soon after. Dont wan extra ma ^^
Took 103 back to srgn. Asshole alighted at Hougang.
After that went to central to take key from my maid. Oh! Amy shouted my name so loud ==
Talked to wamen and amy for awhile then left.
Reached home at ard 8.20.
Quickly chiong and bathe.

Met asshole at bus stop and we bused to East coast. My first time in my whole entire life i took bus to ecp. Hahaha.
We wanted to rent a bike. But all the bike rental shops were closed. So.. We walked ard.
I bought my Double choc frappe and she bought her Mcflurry.
Walked for quite long before we found a nice seat.
Hehhhhh. Shall not elaborate further le.
Took a cab home at 12.25?
Haaaaaa, i enjoyed my day today. (:

I hope i'll be able to keep my promise.

Fuck you and your lies upside down.

Dont regret okay, seriously.

Yay gonna pon training tmr cos going Raffles Institution ^^
Finally a day's break from training.

Its finally Friday tmr~
heheheh. Shall give you a hug tmr since a owe you one.

Ps: WHY ISNT JIE REPLYING MY MESSAGES. MIA. ROAR.

I love you, in french.

Friendly match against Whitley this aftrnoon.
Mainly B girls playing but Farah, humy and i played cos they were short of players.
Hmm, i played at the second half. Humy's injured cos she got knocked down by a giant.
Wtf, she's damn tall! Half head taller than me. And she is quite big size too.
she's damn random. She sorta chat with me during the match.
She told me she's a basketballer and she even ask me what primary sch i was from.
She kept singing -.- k i shall translate. " Stupid bitch, look what look, I dig your eye balls out. "
SHE JUST KEPT REPEATING THAT. Effing god. I wonder if she's scolding me cos i kept staring at her. She's just too weird.
So, score was 3-0 and we won.

Physical pain takes away emotional pain.
Even if its temporary.
At least it takes away the pain.

You liar. I wish i can just stop being jealous.
When can i stop being jealous luh seriously.
you and your crap. I really had enough of it.
Really la. stop lying to me. Just tell me you love that pianist of yours so that you can fuck off from my brain. JUST ADMIT IT AND STOP LYING TO ME, GAH FUCK YOU. ==

H0, Happy 15th Birthday Jellilo~
Jellilo aka shaowen aka my senior aka a blur sotong
but she's a fun person when you get to know her well
I love to bully her cos when you laugh at her she will also laugh along and she ends up laughing at herself silly aint she.
Hahah she doesnt really act like a sec 3 although she's one but when it comes to study
she's pro cos she's in 3e2. okay so once again happy birthday jelly, act like a 15 year old! haha.

We gave her a birthday bash during training today we poured water all over her and made her
wet inside out. It was damn fun and she hugged me from the back to make me wet gosh thats so random. K mich made me fall just now and there's a cut on my wrist you better be guilty.
haha. ph and i made mich wet too i just felt like making her wet. she's so wet that i need to lend her my uniform cos i dont wan her to fall sick but apparently she's falling sick.
she's as weak as usual. Dont fall sick la you can smell my shirt as much as you want, haha.

I feel so weird now i just feel like typing without punctuation.
You left without saying bye to me today and i know you were not in a good mood
you didnt pick up my calls neither did you reply to my messages you dunno how worried i was and now im feeling so weird i guess i miss you alot dummy. haha.
i dunno why but i just feel so.

Ps: i flunked my math test today and i have home ec test tmr you need much luck Junese.

Every now and then, i still do.

Sometimes i dont know why i'd smile when i see you.

Training is sucky. Sucky sucky sucky. Weather sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks.
I feel that im wasting my time doing something i dont like.
But the problem is, i dont have a choice.

Hehhhhhh. asshole's back from camp. WB~
I wasnt feeling v well ytd. Dont know why. Nearly died during training.
aft training pei-ed asshole go heartland mall eat her dinner.
I had to watch her eat Yoshinoya again! but nvm la.
This time i wasnt that hungry. More to lethargic.
Mm hmm. Bused to srgn. then i had to chiong home.
Cos i didnt bring my key and my sis was going out. So ya. Quickly rush home.

Decided to watch tooth fairy @ AMK HUB. Wanted to watch The Spy Next Door. But nah.
k so asshole went early to buy the ticket. Cos scared no seats ma.
The cinema was quite crowded. But i was still dying. It was like north pole luh!
Almost freezed to death. the show was... Average la. AVATAR IS SO MUCH BETTER.
The woman sitting beside me in the cinema is so irritating -.-
She keep laughing like siao even though its not THAT funny.
Then everytime she laugh, she must jerk back and forth. Make my chair shake also.
She kept doing that. I was a lil irritated. But didnt really bother abt her.
Heh our seats were quite good. Necks didnt die (:

The movie ended at abt 11.30pm. We missed our last bus.
Wanted to take cab. But we took mrt instead. Went to macs to get asshole's mac flurry.
Then i got my supper too. Da bao to stage there to eat. Otw there, a cockroach passed by.
Omfg -.- i jumped and sorta screamed. So malu. x.x
Eat finish le then slack slack. Homed at 1+am.

Tuition today. Damn it. I was dying. Couldnt really understand.
I was v frustrated. I drank 2 cups of bbt today. hmm. Drank something new. Matcha. hahah.
I have alot of science homework. I'll chiong it tmr i guess.
Friendly match against Whitley on weds. EFF. I HATE MATCHES.
Im feeling really lethargic these few days. All these crap and all the trainings.
Im both mentally and physically tired. I need a break.
I hope i can fall sick. So i can dont care abt everything. zz.

But is it okay on the inside?

I'll run and never look back.
but running away wont solve the problem.

Agrh, my knee hurts for no reason. The bone feels weird. .___.
Yayyyyy. ITS FRIDAY TMR. and you're coming back! ^^

I miss you kid.

Stop lying to me. Everytime when im abt to succeed, you lie to me. AGAIN.
Tell me all those crap. Giving me false hope and everything.
Make me think and think. And then again, im back to the starting point, struggling, trying to forget. I cant carry on like this. I dont want to carry on like this.
Let memories only be memories. Nothing more than that.
I'VE DECIDED. IM CLIMBING OVER TO THE OTHER SIDE OF THE WALL.

Move on. Whats the point of reminiscing when you know the person is no longer worthwhile;
when they're no longer who they used to be? When they're heart is somewhere else?
Do you think they still care for you, still sit there thinking about you?
Becos frankly, they dont.

Hey, i will move on to the other side of the wall.
I want that whats on the other side. Even though its not the same, its okay.
Whats on the other side will probably be better. I'll never know until i move over to the other side.
I will get to the other side. I WILL.

PS: FASTER COME BACK FROM CAMP KIDDO. dont miss me too much yeah? xD Have fun. i'll miss you! (L)

I hope.
NO.

&. Im jealous. SO?

LOOOK AT MY NEW PRETTY BAYBEH YO.
I know you guys are fucking jealous ^^

Its finally sunday today! wang-der-full~ hohoho.
Asshole accompanied me to queensway to get my boots. Teehee.
But before that, she went to plaza sing to buy tickets for our movie.
Scared no seats ma. Heng she go buy the tickets first! Cos it was damn crowded.
Almost full house~ so, we took mrt to queensway. i ate my breakfast at macs.
We chionged to macs! Cos breakfast was abt to end. I was so lazy to run ._.
But asshole pulled me along. Luckily! Or else i wouldnt have my big breakfast alr.
I didnt eat the bread. Cos i dont like it plain x.x So i gave it to asshole.
She likes it with jam. Hahah.

After breakfast, walked down to Weston to buy my boots.
Finally got my size! (Y) Asshole helped me check whether the boots was just right for me. ^^
oh ya. I was damn ps for that moment. Ya. you know why. And you wont stop laughing.
Make me more ps. tsk! She bought nike shoelace. tsk, so ex. But it was partially for charity.
After that, still damn early. Nth to do ma. So walked ard. Really damn sian.
So we decided to go PS, walk walk. we were damn bored. Ps uh, imma boring person lo.
Dunno how to entertain you sia. :x
Headed to Mos Burger to kill time. I bought fries and clam chower soup.
Asshole was playing with the pepper~ hahah. wrote words with it. Lala.
I too, played with the tomato sauce. I wrote sth too ^^
after eating, went up to buy my drink before going in to the cinema.
The show was awesome x10! Graphics was damn good. But the duration of the show was damn long. my bladder was gonna burst. x.x
we were sitting at kinda at the front seats. No choice ma cos other ppl book online alr.
So only left the first few rows. Asshole said her neck was breaking ._. but i was okay luh.
Just that neck abit suan. But not as worse as hers. Aw. but i SOMEHOW saved your neck.
teeeeheee :B Enjoyed the movie. (: thumbs up eh, i find it better than 'Jump'.

Yoshinoya for dinner. Yayyyy. I like yoshinoya. ((:
ate Ebi meal. It was delicious. Nth much happened at yoshinoya.
oh ya! I edited asshole's handphone note. Heheh~ Look at it and smile ho. xD
then hor. this xmm become v bhb! you know you know? she changed my wall[paper and added a note. but after that she removed it.

okay~ we took mrt to from to punggol. then back to srgn. In between, asshole did lotsa
silly stuffs. made me laugh my ass off! eh and, i caught you off guard. ;D
im beginning to have more courage! Dont you think so? :B
aft that she took 147 home. Gah. If only today is saturday then dont need go home so early.
IF ONLY. But nvm~ its okay. there's always next week. Really had lotsa fun today.
In fact, not only today! Haha. thanks for making my day again.
Im always looking forward to friday.
and, i'll miss you so much for that 2 days!

Ya la. got your WEIRDO then good alr la. Got your SOMEONE then good alr la.
I fucking quote this from your blog okay. "and b, i’ll be waiting till we could be friends again. imissus having all the fun tgt. hmmm."
What. me, your NORMAL FRIEND. trying to BE FRIENDLY and ask you things nia.
I even fucking took the initiative to TALK TO YOU. And " there's no need" to let you know
is the best fucking answer that you can give me?
"I MISS US." stop fucking hell lying la. GOT YOUR WEIRDO CAN ALR WAD.
Go fucking hell have fun la. SO MUCH FOR SAYING THAT YOU WANT US TO BE FRIENDS BACK SO BADLY. START FROM ZERO. YOU KEPT SAYING IT AGAIN AND AGAIN.
START FROM ZERO. and now you're like that.
stop fucking hell lying to me alright? Seriously. I had enough of your nonsense.
Just that sentence you said earlier on. you fucking pissed me off.
Having so much fun then have other ppl then talk to me like that la.
Okay lor. Dont regret.

FUCK OFF. JUST FUCK OFF FROM MY LIFE.
So what if you're unhappy when you read this post.
let me tell you, I-DONT-GIVE-A-FUCK.

Cos i am. Especially when im with you. (:

Woooooots. Its finally friday. I woke up late at 7.05!
Nearly late, so faster chiong outta the house. Heng, nv late.
okok, class was boring as usual. Shall not elaborate.

Then training. heh, the weather was nice ^^
My leg was hurting like !@#$%^&*)&*. Damn it. Muscle ache plus blister.
After training Shar wanted to go hougang mall. But then i v lazy, didnt wanna follow.
So, chris and shar went to hougang mall to buy stuffs. Heh, asshole missed me so much that she suggested they send me to the bus stop. :B Oh ya, ____ was at the bus stop too!
854 and 43 came. So they boarded 854 and i boarded 43. ____ was on 43 too. LOOOL.

Maid didnt cook dinner -.- So i had to packet food. Hmm. I ate alot~
Didnt pei asshole eat cos i lazy go hgm. After that we wanted to go somewhere cos its friday.
Hmm, so we decided to watch a movie. Wanted to watch at PS de. Then all the movies like full house sia. wtf. Nearly gave up, then i checked AMK. Woot, Many seats left. Off-ed the comp and went to bathe. I practically chionged! Luckily i took a cab, or else sure late.
Asshole reached thr first. So she q-ed to buy tickets. It was damn crowded.
When we went in, the show alr started! But nvm, we only missed like 1min of the show.
Not important. The show was effing funny!!

Laughed like nobody's business man.
Asshole laughed alot too. Hahah. THE SHOW WAS AWESOME TO THE MAX!
At first it wasnt that cold but towards the end it was freaking cold. I kept drinking my F&N grape. Hahah. I was literally shivering can. K so show ended, took bus to srgn.
Went to 7-11 cos asshole wanted to buy a drink then i wanted to buy mashed potato but there's no cup -.- so nvm, i didnt buy. Asshole bought milo ice cream instead of a drink. hahah. Aye, xmm, you eat ice cream damn cute de lor, really like xmm leh. ^^
And, im not dxj! stewpig. Haha. After that went to macs buy my DOUBLE CHOC FRAPPE~ (Y) nice. then at macs, xmm cant stop pestering me to tell her ________. tsktsk!

walked to shop and save or cold storage. Idk which. Asshole wanted to buy drink, but the q damn long, so ya. she dont wan buy alr. Lepak lepak at the stage there.
Haaa. lepak-ed there for quite long. Heh, fug happy. ^^
12.53 last bus. So no choice. asshole gotta go home. Aw. pei her wait for bus. then walked home. Luckily i brought my keys! washed up and collapsed on my bed. Bleah, i fell asleep while replying your message. Damn it. Sry. Then midnight when my mum came home, she woke me up cos i was holding my phone. I looked at my phone then i realised i havent reply. Hahaha.

Woke up at 9plus today. Earlier than usual eh.
Had tuition at 1.30. I felt like going tuition cos i dont even understand a single thing that mdm tng is saying. So, i needed help from tuition cher. Finally i understand, a little.
Going to Queensway with asshole to buy my Mercurial Talaria tmr. LIKE FINALLY!
That time i went with my mum, there was no stock for my big feet -.-
After buying boots gonna go watch Avatar. Heh, asshole gonna pei me watch avatar even though she watched it alr. ^^
Looking forward to tmr~

PS: I SAW STICKMAN WHILE WALKING HOME JUST NOW! xD
PS: For just that 1 min or so is gonna make me hapy for days. ^^
If only time could freeze when you're with me. xD

I started all this crap. I have to accept the fact that you're alr gone. Its over.
You've gotten over it, but i havent. So what. Watch me, I WILL GET OVER IT.
dont worry. i will move on. No matter how much i miss you. i will still move on.
I dont need you.

I didnt expect you to have alr moved on..
heh. watch me.

soccer, soccer and more soccer. Soccer 4 times a week. Like seriously tiring luh.
Now a have minor injuries everywhere. I got whacked by a ball in the face on monday.
It was damn pain for that moment. Farah's kicks aint lousy you know. Now my nose hurts a lil.
Then the injury on my ankle from the SRJC match also havent recover. I got another orh ceh
today.
Time seem to pass really slowly today. I was damn sleepy at the last 2 lessons.
home ec and chinese. Darn boring ==
Fitness tmr. SIAAAAAAAAAAN. and the sec 3s get to pon training cos they're going camp.
gah.

Actually you know what? you dont have to act like you're so happy infront of me. ==
You're faking a smile arent you? Seriously, by doing that, you make me dont even feel like looking at you. Its like. Since you're so happy without me. then, why say so much crap.
Crying and everything. ya, now im the bad guy. Everybody thinks im the bad guy. All your good friends thinks im the bad guy right? yala, who cares. Idc. Since you've got so much goodfriends and you're having so much fun, you dont need me. I dont need you too.
One moment you say that you're sad, blahhhhhh blahhh. Another moment you're so happy. ==
feel weird ard me. then what can i do? what. make you not weird? cmon. why the fuck must i do that man. Since you're so happy without me. then must well you live w/o me la. Since i only make you sad right? Okay norh. up to you la, so be it. Friends or not friends, you decide.
you said we're still friends. Are you acting like me friend anot? ask yourself. I message you, you dao me. wtf? I message you leh. tmd. wan dao. okay lah. I wont sms you anymore lor.
Stop giving making me assume. == you're making me so confused. one moment you're this and another you're that. I really dont understand you know. tell me can? tell me what you're thinking. its so tiring to keep guessing you know.
YES. YOU.

Yep so i woke up so early on a saturday morning -.- went for the cca open house.
Last year's cca open house was on a sch day lor, not saturday. Woooot asshole bought me choc waffle again. i didnt really have appetite in the morning. but i still ate it. It lasted me the whole morning. thanks asshole ^^ Okay so we set up the booth and i was so sleepy. But still no choice. Had to walk ard to persuade the sec 1s to join soccer. Shar would definately be a good salesgirl!
She talked alot and managed to persuade a few girls to write their names down. Phew.
Not much ppl wanted to join soccer. I tried to ask a girl to join soccer then she told me "soccer so chor lor one!" -.- thats the first impression ppl have on soccer. Rough. Not really luh.

After that went to the hall to watch the performance. I was really looking forward to the BB's.
Hahaha. I think everybody in the team knows why luh. after that went to Hougang point macs to eat. Headed to Cityhall with shar and asshole. Sw didnt wanna go along despite me persuading her for like damn long. Then i finally gave up since she doesnt wanna go then i wont force her (:

im so lazy to write on. So yeah, im not gonna continue alr. o.o

Havent update for quite a long time. So ya, decided to update. hmm.
School's boring. I hate to look at those old woman's face. Shall not mention names.
All kinds of faces. You see, when goeg cher came in, the class greeted her politely.
But when it comes to ms goh and mdm tng, our form and co form, We dont even bother to greet then properly. Then they will make is sit down and stand up again. SOUNDS FAMILIAR? cos thats what we do in pri sch. == Mdm tng seriously treat us like pri sch kids.
And i cant stand her english. the way she speak. Like seriously i feel so irritated when i hear her voice and see her face. Ms goh. stupid face of hers. She likes to roll her eyes. Sickening face.
Mon, tues, wed, fri, i have soccer. Thurs i have pe. Its like sports sports and more sports.

I love my goeg teacher. She has the bitchy attitude. Hahah, But she's really funny.
She reminds me of Ms Lenny. She is like, MS LENNY NUMBER TWO!
She makes lessons interesting. But her lessons are kinda slack. I cried while laughing.
I felt so ridiculous. Hahaha. Laughed so hard that i cried. Its the way she talk. Hah, interesting.
Time passes so fast during her lessons. Which is good.

Asshole bought choc waffle for me today. awesome awesome awesome. I have been craving for choc waffle for 3 days. Woots, the waffle was superb. Nicenicenice. Although its kinda cold but its still yummy yummy yummy yummy. Nicer than any other waffle, i ate it to the very last bit. ^^
Walked ard in sch with wenqi. then gigi had to go for high mt class. So ya, wenqi and i went basement to study o.o Ate that gigantic lolly that gigi gave me ^^ It was nice, But SO BIG.
My mouth felt so suan after eating eat. Its sweet on the outside and chewing gum on the inside.
I felt so restless. Stucked at question 5 for damn long all thanks to mdm tng and her stupid complicated teaching style damn it damn it damn it.

Its finally friday tmr.